Living Word Interdenominational Church
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Living Word Interdenominational Church
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It will Never Be…..
Those are the words I heard one day during worship at church. I wasn’t sure of their meaning so I asked, “What Lord? What will never be?” The response was the same, nothing more, nothing less. God had given me these four little words and nothing more. So I asked again, what will “never be” Lord, what? Still, there was no answer.
I began to wonder what it
was that God had for me in these four little words. I began to back track
throughout my days and weeks prior to this moment. Had I prayed for something
or someone? Perhaps I had prayed and the Lord was giving me an answer or
providing me with some kind of guidance. Somehow, though, there was no peace
in believing that this was the answer to some specific prayer. Why would God
give me such a general answer if this was an answer to prayer? I believe two
very important things about answers from God to our prayers. Two things I
learned as my walk with him began. The first is that when he answers my
prayers, he gives me complete peace. I know in the inner most depths of my
heart that it is from him and him alone because only he can provide that peace
that “transcends all understanding” (Phil 4:7). The second thing that I
believe is that God’s answers are all that is complete and without fail. That
his promises to us are not partial, general or vague. His promises to us are
complete, specific, whole and without fail. His word states this, “…you know
with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the Lord your
God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed”
(Jos 23:14). You see, God has given us his WHOLE word. In his book, he provided a
beginning, middle and an end and a means to get there.
Still, knowing what I believed, I was confused. Then it came to me one day soon after he spoke to me during worship. You see, I had not been praying for anything specific but I was going through a difficult time personally. It was one of those times though that you convince yourself that you’re not really going through something you can’t handle. You convince yourself that somehow you don’t want to bother God with your small problems because, well, they seem small. We believe that we are invincible to “small” problems because we have built up our faith. We believe we can take on the small speed bumps that life and the enemy throws in our paths. The truth of the matter is that the moment we think we shouldn’t bother God with such a small problem, we have let the enemy stick his foot in the door and suddenly we are having trouble closing it shut. The “small” problems I was going through were simply thoughts of my past, both recent and of when I was growing up. I realized that I had been allowing a constant rush of memories and thoughts go through my mind over a period of time. I didn’t think that these thoughts were doing anything harmful as I often tend to analyze everything. I simply attributed this phase of rehashing my past to my need to analyze things in my life. What I was doing however was allowing the enemy to have his way with my mind. The word of God speaks often of how our mind is susceptible to the ploys of the enemy. Our mind falls prey to deception if we do not guard it at all times, “But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent’s cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ” (2 Corinth 11:3).
How could I be so aware of the enemy’s tactics, yet not be able to break through the rushing random thoughts and memories? Hurtful and painful memories that I knew I had no business rehashing. How could I be so consciously aware that these thoughts weren’t from God?! This had happened before, times when I thought I needed to analyze my past, to re-evaluate my self worth. Don’t we all do this at some point? Don’t we all come to a point in our walk with the Lord when we ask him, “Am I really worth it”? Did you really mean to have your son die for me too? I don’t believe that there is one person out there who has given their life to the Lord that has never doubted their true value. We are human and flesh after all.
So with all this being said, I heard His great and might voice over the rushing of my thoughts and memories. I heard it clearly over the heckling of the enemy as he tried desperately to drown out the thundering voice of the Lord declaring to me…..
IT WILL NEVER BE!!! IT WILL NEVER BE!!! IT WILL NEVER BE!!!
Then and there I understood, and that peace that transcends and surpasses all came pouring over me. You see, there is nothing in my memories, in my past and most especially in my future that will ever be as bad as it was before I accepted the Lord as my savior and gave him my life. The enemy will do all that he can to have you believe otherwise. He will torture your mind with hurtful memories; he will desperately try to remind you of who you once were and how unworthy you lived your life. He will try to convince you that as you go through similar trials now as a child of God you still lack in worth and value.
My God, however, says NO! God spoke to me and said, “Irene, my little girl, these are my promises to you,
It will never be as painful. It will never be as sad. It will never be as lonely. It will never be as cold. It will never be as hard. It will never be as dark. It will never be without end.
Just as the Lord made a covenant with Noah to never again let the waters “become a flood to destroy all life”, I believe that I have a great covenant with my God. On the day his son died for me and on the day I gave my life to him, He promised me my lifetime of rainbows. Rainbows just as he gave Noah, to declare that the flood would never again overtake the earth. My rainbows are meant to remind me that there are no floods of pain, memories, hurt, loneliness or unhappiness that can ever overtake me. With my salvation came my covenant with God that my life would never again be overtaken by the floods of the enemy. |
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